I did it and life

I bit the bullet and bought the ipod touch. Its really amazing. I’m very intrigued by this gadget. I struggled with feeling guilty about spending that kind of money on myself but like i said in my previous post, I’m hoping it will inspire me to exercise alittle more. At least walk or something. It plays movies and stuff as well. Totally crazy!! I still have lots of learning to do on it considering it has several functions besides movies and songs. I get frustrated easily when I can’t figure things out, such as this website. I put it down for awhile and try again later. This website confuses me as well. I love the Internet but sometimes its complicated.

So last nite my son was a totally nut case. Bouncing off the walls, crabby, and unreasonable. It amazes me how much he acts like Sean. Gabby was alittle un-focused as well. I have to remind myself that my kids are children and not robots as my lovely friend Lynn so kindly reminded me. I need to have more patience but I don’t. How do you get more patients? Besides drugs…lol I have considered going on meds myself just so that I’m not as edgy. I seem to be anxious alot. I have a lot on my mind these days. I worry more then people know. I seem very strong most of the time but alot of the time my walls are up and my defensive side is on. This year has started off on a positive note for the most part. Sean and I have gained control of our finances again and seem to be doing ok. Of course there’s still more we can pay off, which seems like it never ends but were are working at it slowly and also rewarding ourselves at the same time. Hence my spending the money on the ipod touch=) Sean’s job is well and he seems to be really happy there. I have alot to be grateful for. I just wonder why my patience is thin and why I seem edgy alot. Its annoying. I can’t imagine bringing more kids into the world at this time in my life. I can barely deal with the children I have. I crave for connected and deep relationships with my children, friends and family. Some of those relationships I don’t know if it will ever happen. I pray for peace of mind, forgiveness, and patience. I’m hoping in journaling my feelings down that it will make me more aware of my choices and thoughts through out my day.

I must go. My little one needs to go outside and play. I will be back later…

Monday’s SUCK

Good morning all! I’m sitting here typing away with my big fat coffee mug in front of me. Its a yucky day outside. I feel badly for Gabby cause she has a field trip today and is so excited. Not sure how that’s gonna pan out but I know there going ran or shine. She looked so cute today with her stylish hat, Tampa sweatshirt, jeans and pink converse. She loves her college sweatshirts she gets from her family. What a great kid!

Zachary was up alot last nite for some reason. So from about midnight till about 3-4 I was consoling him and trying to keep the knew kitten out of my arm pit all night. Sean was sawing logs and farting the WHOLE nite while totally sleeping, it amazes me. I had given him benedryl before he went to bed cause he was sneezing, and had itchy eyes. All my babies were taken care of last night. I always amaze myself how I can function after such crazy, restless nights. God sure did make a women amazing huh?

So today I hope to get a few things accomplished. I need to do some laundry, and get some food in the house. I hate both of these tasks but someones gotta do it. I have been thinking of buying an apple ipod touch lately. My lovely husband wanted a new golf bag because he wants to golf more this summer. That’s gonna be his fasha day present. I ordered it already. It should be here Wednesday. I’m giving it to him early because he is going to visit Ray this weekend and there going golfing. Really I’m giving to him early because we are like to little kids when it comes to presents. We can’t stand the wait and the surprise. No self control whatsoever. Its horrible really. You should see us at Christmas. We are even bad with the kids. I mean I’m worse with the kids. I beg and beg to give them just one gift before Christmas but my ever so level head hubby says “if we give them just one, what are we teaching them? and you know we won’t just give them one” I have totally agree with that but I kick and scream alittle longer just to see if he might cave like he does when he gives me my presents early. I’m relentless I know. We crack each other up though.

So back to the ipod touch. I have been hearing how cool they are and its almost like I’m not cool cause I haven’t already owned one. I feel so out of touch with whats cool and not. Actually I really don’t care but I think these little devices are pretty neat. I’m hoping that this machine with inspire me to exercise alittle. (If this electrical device only new what kind of pressure I was expecting from it…lol) I haven’t taken the plunge of buying one yet. I have searched craigslist and ebay several times and actually even bid on one last week but it got pricey. Once it gets up to the price there selling in the stores brand new I really don’t think its worth it. I mind as well get one new. I’m so logical. I guess I will break down and buy it one of these days. I don’t know too much about them so if anyone wants to give me some tips that would be super.

I guess I should go. I need to get my game face on for the day and get movin. Zachary is begging to go to Target. I think I must shop at Target too much if my 2 year old wants to go there…lol

Well bye for now….

Hello World

My name is Alicia. I’m a wife and mom of 3 kids,oops i mean two but a husband who acts like my 3rd child. I enjoy long walks on the beach, just kidding. Screw that! Really, I enjoy reading, art, photography, dance, eating, dining, traveling, my children, music, sports, freetime, and did I mention eating…ha ha

I decided to start a blog because I thought it would be a good way to express myself since I’m a stay at home mom and my life seems to only consist of my children and hubby. Whom I love very much but sometimes need a change of pace. I have journaled in the past on paper and its always been very good for my soul. I hope to find that same feeling by blogging. I also thought it was a good way to keep in contact with family and friends to see how the “Anderson’s” are doing.

To my friends and family and those who come across my weblog I hope you will enjoy stepping into my little world for awhile. My intentions are to be honest, real, and personable. I’m often mis-understood but once you get to know me I’m very witty, warm, and fun to be around. I hope those that read will keep an open mind and not pass judgment.

“love all, trust few, do wrong to know one”